Cynthia Luvs, 8th April
I'm astonishingly awkward, easily affected and extremely negative.

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2011 may be a short year for some people but it's a really long year full of ups and downs for me so this shall be the post on my whole sum up of 2011.

I lost my best-est best friend, Jasmine whom I never ever dream of losing her, the 4 years plus friendship all to drain. Cried. Disappointed. Because those times were really awesome and I really miss it.. alot but well, gone is gone. Even if we get back as friends, it won't be the same anymore. Most of the time, what I can't forget is the memories instead of the person.

At the very least, I learned to live my life without depending on anyone and most of all, I grew up.


This will be the last picture of you in my blog because you won't be in my 2012 and I'm done with making the effort to contact you shamelessly despite you not giving any shit about me. Goodbye.

Sometimes I really despise my thinking of not making friends after having a close friend in case I neglect the one dearer to me and in the end when the close friend leave me, I'm left with nothing.

WELL! Like what people always says 'Gain some, lose some'.

I lost one very close bestfriend and I gain 2 bestfriends; Mervin and Priscilla. God is still kind to me :)


We don't meet up often and neither do we contact each other every single day but when I need help or a pair of listening ear, I'm very sure I can depend on them! And despite having school, homeworks and other friends, they will still give a damn on me despite me being a damn fucked up person. What more can I ask for ?

Like my mom always tell me when I tell her I wish I was still friends with Jasmine, she will always say what for clinging on someone when you are not even part of their backup plan. So shameless for what when you have good friends like Mervin and Priscilla? :D

I can't promise to fix all your problems but I definitely would be their listening ears if they ever need me, even at 3am at night and I promise you'll never have to go through them alone! You have my number. No matter what you need, call me. No matter what time it is, I'll be there. Cynthia's guarantee chop promised!

Hanging tough together because we don't come with fragile stickers. Thanks for helping me out whenever possible, making time for me even when you don't have any, and trust your friendship enough to say 'no'. Best friends are cross-your-heart-and-hope-to-die, good-times-and-bad-times, borrow-anything, tell-you-everything, trust-you-with-their-deepest-darkest-secrets, always-and-forever-friends

Another factor making me moving on with my life is my mom!


Although everyone could see and feel she dote on my siblings more than me but how many parents would actually support on stopping studies and focus on blogshop stuffs. But my mom actually did, she knows Fashion Hooks is my hardwork and I won't give up so easily and she even told me, even if she makes me go school, I will still work on Fashion Hooks and neglect my schoolwork so no point too! No one understands me so well like how she do.

Yes, she do nags and scolds me at times but she gave me the support I really wanted and she always says if you can't carry on with Fashion Hooks then don't stress yourself too much. Find a job you like will do. Super touched when she said to me but FH is my life, I'm not gonna end my life seriously.

Thanks mom, my life will suck even more without you! ♥


And I went to movie with my 2 closest cousins after not meeting them for months. Had fun catching up with them although we didn't met for long hours but I really enjoy going out with them for I never felt left out before with them! Wherever I want to eat, they will go with me without hesitations! ♥

Of course I met new people in my 2011. Became friends with some of them and got disliked by some too but well, life still goes on even if everyone hates you!


Met and know Kiyomi who taught me on how to stick eyelash on because I can watch Youtube videos for hours and practicing for hours yet can never get it done. Yes, real noob I know and because of her, I explored makeup and you can seldom see me without makeup now! :x

Then I met many different new friends and people like Grace, Felicia, Ee Eng, Levon, Ben, Jody, Berlin, Javier, Jovin and of course I got to hang out more often with ex-schoolmates like Qiuxia, YongXuan and Yijun ! :D


Be it whether we are still friends now, I'm still thankful to have know them and hang out at least once together! :)

Yup and I changed alot in terms of appearance wise, thicker and thicker makeup!


If you asked me what I did in 2011, I will tell you I grew up mentally and of course physically.

There are many stuffs especially family and friends wise which is very hard for me to accept, but you can't change the past. You can't go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen. But you can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life. Yes, you will make mistakes. And yes, you will have bad days but as long as you let the past go, you'll have such a gorgeous and and bright future ahead of you. Knowing that things were meant to happen. Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person.

I’m not a little girl anymore, I’ve learned who to trust and who to ignore. I don't forgive people because I'm weak, I forgive them because I'm strong enough to know that people make mistakes and because I still want them in my life. It's hard to grow up in a society where you will never be the pretty girl. Everyone seems to have everything you don't. And dreams are always one cloud away from where you are.

I'm fat, bitchy, stupid, ugly, paranoid, sensitive, mean, 2-face, awkward, annoying, demanding, frustrated, impulsive & selfish. This is who I am. Nobody said you had to like it.

If you can't take all my fucked up flaws, don't befriend me, leave my life, sayonara! If you can accept me for who I am, of course I'm thankful for it ♥ Because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.


I really hope 2012 would be a better year for me because I can't take anymore people leaving my life. If you don't intend to stay with me, please leave before 2012 comes. I really don't welcome those who come and go, either you are with me or don't enter my life at all! If you're sick and tired of me, please tell me and not leave me quietly.

Main focus for 2012 will be Fashion Hooks, Family and Friends. Rest? I don't really give a shit.

I hope I could control my temper and stop pissing people close to me or upsetting them!
I hope I could stop disappoints my mom and close friends.
I hope I could be less fucked up!
I hope I could stop letting people down.
I hope I could be a stronger and nicer person.
I hope I could be funnier because I finished using all my jokes already! LOL!

I want to be a better daughter, a better sister, a better machi, a better friend and a better person because I want to change for the better.

This ain't a anyhow draft up post, because it's my effort of 7 hours!

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