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 Cynthia Luvs, 8th April I'm astonishingly awkward, easily affected and extremely negative. Contact Me
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Posted on 10 February 2012 ♥   I hate how hello is always accompanied with goodbye. I hate how good memories can start to make you cry. I hate how forever never seems to really last. I hate how much I'd lose if I forgot about my past. I hate how friends can just leave you when you're down. I hate how when you need someone, they're never around. I hate how people change and think they're so much better. I hate how people can forgive even though they can't forget. I hate how ironic life turns out to be. I'm tired of being sad. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of feeling empty inside. I'm tired of feeling worthless. I'm tired of feeling stuck. I'm tired of feeling crazy. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of yelling. I'm tired of pretending. I'm tired of dreaming of a life I will never have. I'm tired of missing things. I'm tired of missing people. I'm tired of remembering. I'm tired of wishing I could start all over. I'm tired of not being able to just let go. I'm tired of faking it. I'm tired of being different. I'm tired of being angry. I'm tired of needing help. I'm tired of always wondering when God is finally going to let me be happy. Most of all, I'm just I'm tired of being tired. I'm never going to show you how broken I am inside. I am never going to show you how I need you in my life. You'll never hear me say that I miss you or find out that you're the reason that I cry. You'll never catch me.. because you'll never see me fall. I'm just going to keep everything inside and smile through all the pain.. and even though I'm breaking down I'll always manage to stay sane. I'll never show you what you want to see. I'm never going to let you see through me." Labels: Thoughts |