C Y N T H I A L U V S ♥.♥

Posted on 13 February 2012 ♥

I don't speak from pain
I don't scream in vain
I don't want to reveal the hurt I gained

I bottle it up
Let the little bottle fill

My tears are endless
My tears are actually useless

How much I cry for help from others
Holding onto that one little string of life
No one bothers

How am I suppose to even die
These two worlds kept making me cry

I'm scared to die
I'm scared to live

I'm lost in this world
But who would believe?

I'm tired of fighting, I want to be fought for.
I'm tired of caring, I want to be cared for.
I'm tired of being what you want me to be, I just want to be myself.

I'm tired of being taken for granted.
I'm tired of people telling me what I can, and can't do.
I'm tired of being questioned and accused
I'm tired of being judged for everything I do.

I'm tired of being last to everyone I care about.
I'm tired of being ignored and forgotten by "Friends".
I'm tired of losing friends, the friends I have now I'm going to try my hardest to keep.

I'm tired of words and I'm too hoarse to shout.
I'm tired of being tired and I'm tired of being sad.
I'm tired of everything, every single small thing. I'm utterly tired of life.

Sometimes, I'm just tired of being alone.

I don't put my faith or trust in anyone anymore.
After so much, I got tired of being disappointed constantly.
I don't depend on people anymore because I'm tired of being disappointed.

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