Cynthia Luvs, 8th April
I'm astonishingly awkward, easily affected and extremely negative.

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Exported most of the previous posts, 260 in total to my old private blog which consist of all my little life details from 2009 and did slight changes to the blogskin because I'm too lazy to find a new one and edit them especially when I suck at coding. Only kept a few post in this blog.

I wanna restart my life anew, not stuck at those old memories where most of the people are already not with me anymore.

Well, people come and go. But it sucks when I remember how good the past was and how things are different today. When I look at them, I can't help but think of how important they used to be to me. Now, they're just a memory. The only thing I could say is 'The best thing about the worst part of your life is that you get to see the true colors of everyone you cared for'.


Some are just not meant to be in my life while some just wanna leave me, I'm fine with anything as long as they don't come in and go out of my life as if it's a door. Am just thankful to have the handful of true ones who are close and there when times are getting blue, trying their best to keep in contact with me despite having new friends. ♥ I don't need a certain number of friends, just a number of friend(s) that I can be certain of.

Seen through too much people and been through too much bullshits. Sick of being questioned and accused. Tired of everything, every single small thing. I'm utterly tired of life. I don't put my faith or trust in anyone anymore. After so much, I got tired of being disappointed constantly. I don't depend on people anymore because I'm tired of being disappointed.

2012 isn't a good year, too much shits but I'm not gonna dwell on those shits and fake ass anymore. Too numb to all bullshits and too tired to give a fuck. Well, gone is gone. Even if we get back as friends, it won't be the same anymore. Most of the time, what I can't forget is the memories instead of the person.

I’m slowly learning to let go of the things that hurts. And most importantly, I’ve grow up and accepted reality. Cause nothing last forever. Whatever that has happened would have become the memories and histories of my life, I'm just gonna work hard to my goals and hopefully, don't go emo as often? ;)

I'm not gonna beg anyone to stay. Stay as you want and leave as you wish. Pick your stand, don't come back as you wish after you leave. I'm not a 2nd choice neither a backup plan.

Feel much happier now! ^-^ More love, less hate, forget the past and look forward to everyday! Fashion Hooks *加油!* Cynthia Luvs *加油!* Hahaha! OMG! *Self high*

Oh btw, I've separated my personal blog and Fashion Hooks blog in case you all too lazy to read my own personal life and only interested in Fashion Hooks' updates! Here you go, http://fashionhooks.blogspot.com! (Will be up soon after fixing the blogskin)

Blog again soon! (#♥.♥#)

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