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Posted on 14 April 2012 ♥

Comes to the point of time whereby I'm really too tired beyond words could actually describe how I really feel now.

Despite having people around me, I still feel alone. I often feel like an alien in this world because I feel so alone especially during the night; so peaceful yet haunting as well. It's like when I don't wanna talk, people come asking me what happened, care or curious? And I really hate those times when I desperately need to talk to someone, but no one's there.

And what's the point in sharing to my family/close friends, they can't help much and I'm just adding on to their problems plus I really don't wanna feel like a burden...

The amount of stress and burdens on my shoulders are really draining me out, everyone tells me things will get better but why does it deteriorates day by day? I really hate my life now; I don't know where I'm going w it and I'm just taking it day by day. This isn't the life I wanted... often feeling like a let-down.

My life, I will live it myself. Am really tired of those disappointments I get, sick of going all out and never once get appreciated. Talks are cheap and so does empty promises, lol. Horrible and ungrateful people are such turn-offs.

害怕失去，所以不敢拥有；
害怕欺骗，所以不敢相信；
害怕被看穿，所以一直伪装；
想要坚强，所以一直逞强；不想放弃，所以一直坚持；
不想流泪，所以一直装笑;
不想被丢下，所以宁愿独自一人；不想被过去束缚，所以选择遗忘过去；
不想说再见，所以宁愿不要遇见。

I'm not okay! I'm not okay! I'm not okay! I'm not okay! I'm not okay! I'm not okay! I'm not okay! I'm not okay! I'm not okay! I'm not okay! I'm not okay! I'm not okay! I'm not okay! I'm not okay! I'm not okay! I'm not okay! I'm not okay! I'm not okay! I'm not okay! I'm not okay!

But I will be and have to be okay... soon! ;)

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