Cynthia Luvs, 8th April
I'm astonishingly awkward, easily affected and extremely negative.

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They say that true friendship is rare, an adage that I believe to be true. Genuine friendship is something that I really cherish, I am so lucky to have met you.

I’ve had lots of friends over the years. They came and went, but you never left. You’re still here, even after six years. All those other “friends” taught me the meaning of a true friend but they never really cared about what went on in my life. They just turned and walked away when things didn’t go their way.

Although there were times where I wanna kick you hard in your face because you piss me off so badly or times where you have your PMS moments but you are also the one who always try your best to brighten up my mood whenever I'm feeling down!

Thanks to you I have someone to turn to, someone to run to when things go wrong. Always hearing me out when I need to talk and being someone whom I can trust with my problems. Thanks for being one of the people whom I can be myself with and fool around especially during KTV times! :D Thanks for being honest with me and tells me what I need to know even when you know I may get angry!


Whenever you feel sad and that no one is around, always know I will be around.
When you think that nobody cares, I hope you know that I will always care.
So don't let me catch you saying you have no one and that no one is around
IF NOT,  我一巴掌给你飞! :D

6 years Machi, I wish you a MERRY 18TH BIRTHDAY once again! ^-^
An abundance of good wishes for you are in store.
A new year filled with lots of happiness and laughter,
And only the very best for you from here on after.

HUAT AH! :D

Labels: d'machi, Dedication

Couldn't get to sleep, guess I'm excited for the buffet lunch later for Mom's birthday later! An really old photo of us because we hardly takes any pictures and even when half of 2012 has past, there's no pictures of her this year! Bad daughter is me ;(

Hope for a mega spam later on with mommy! ^-^


Someone I can count on when I need a helping hand, no matter what troubles I got myself into, she will try to clean up for me even though she have her own stress and troubles. When something's bothering me, she will start a conversation with me and try her best to comfort and encourage me especially when I'm super down even though she's someone who's not good with her words.

Meals prepared everyday before work for us and sumptuous meal whenever she has her off days and the concern she gave us no matter how tired she is or whatever bullshits she received at work, she will still spend her time to interact with us.

Although we do have disagreements at times and piss off each other sometimes, we still get along very well and could start those heart-to-heart talks anytime, anywhere.

I hope the lunch later will be a great one and her birthday next year to be a greater one because I'm super broke recently. 2012 is so not my year! :(

But still, my dear mom, my dear bestfriend, HAPPY BIRTHDAY once again! :D 

Also someone who has the same birthday as my mom,


You won't be left out! So, on your very special day, I just want to say, Happy birthday to you, my dear! Hope you have a blast later on with your boyfriend! Enjoy your meal and see you soon! 有钱再请你吃一餐好的！:D

Thanks for those late night calls to hear me complain how fucked up my life is, thanks for being there when I was so alone previously and thanks for that call on my birthday, else I guess I would have broke down at the point of time! Hehe, thanks for everything you've done for me. ^^

Whatever unhappiness or arguments that happens in the past, will remain there and in the future, will just be happy and memorable times spent together ! ♥

Labels: Birthday, Dedication

Thanks for entering back my life and decides to stay. That one year plus of awkward moment between our group and our friendship was the period I really hated but I'm thankful that you're back in my life after our friendship going through all the ups and downs. ;)

I secretly love how we maintain our friendship. We don't contact every single moment or day but we do at least contact each other once every few days and the weird thing is, we doesn't drift. The feeling whereby I know I can contact you if I need someone and you will try your best to think of the best solution for me and all.

And I really like the way we settle on our disagreements and all, like how we almost never argue but just saying on how we feel on certain things and trying to match each other point of view. It's just awesome and nothing more!


Because once upon a time, we were best friends. And, yes, there's been a lot of bad stuff in between. But none of that matters right now, okay? You need me, I'm there. Any time, any place, anywhere. Whatever unhappiness that happens in the past, will remain there and in the future, will just be happy and memorable times spent together ! :D DoubleP & D'machi ♥ ♥ ♥

You listen when I have a problem or when I need a pair of listening ears and help dry the tears from my face. Taking away all the sadness and put happiness in its place.

We can't forget the fun we've had, laughing till our faces turn blue. Talking of things that only we find it funny and people think we're insane - If they only knew!

I guess this is my way of saying thanks.
Thanks once again for being such a good friend
And being here with me through it all.
Through the good and bad; the ups and downs,
I will be beside you, smiles or frowns,
I will try my best to help you out,
I will reassure you whenever you are in doubt.
I will be there no matter you need me or not.

Good luck for the upcoming poly days which will be really busy and hopefully, there will be time for us to meet up and catch up on each others life like what we're doing now.

Hope you will enjoy your 18th birthday celebrations that we've up for you. Nothing grand but just simple fun. Really thanks for everything you had done for me and I love you! ♥

Labels: Birthday, Dedication

For those who can't read Chinese, the title for today is 'I love my mom!'

I really love her although we might quarrel and have cold war at times but still, she's my mom and will always be!

For those who didn't know, I grew up in a single-parent family. I had a real useless father who brings nothing but troubles to the family like why can't he find a proper job and support the family like what a guy would do. Why did he gamble so much and owe so much debts outside, making my mom slog her guts out to pay for his 'hobby'. What he could do was to gamble, drink and womanize! Lack of cash? Steal mom's gold jewelry to pawn/sell and my mom's money until my mom had nothing left to herself, running up to many debts. I apologize if I sound mean saying about my dad in this way but it's the fact!

My siblings and I share a different father yet my father is the one that cause her all the misery. I know she do blame me in her heart somehow for what my father had done and cause her to be that's why I promise myself I must make it up to her even though she show obvious favoritism.


My life wasn't as easy and simple like other kids since young. Everyone thought I had a rather good life because I'm fleshy and fat. I do not eat alot despite my size ._.

I do not attend school often, not because I'm lazy, it's because I'm too busy and tired. Bullshit? Try helping out at mixed veg stall by waking up at 5 in the morning, prepare and take the MRT from the west to East, get yourself busy the whole day and get to sleep only at 1-2am. I literally look like 20 years old although I was 10 at that time. Not to say about mom who slog double harder than me. She slimmed down alot; tired face and body, sleep deprivation and emotional stress about stall rental and debts.

Just to clear doubts, the stall wasn't mom who wanted to start up! It was started by my uncle and aunt who signed a year contract yet they couldn't cook well thus, mom quitted her originally well-paid job to help them out. As soon as she does that, that realistic aunt quickly throw the burden to mom and find a better job outside. Mom then got uncle to find another job while she manage the stall solely. In my view is, you all have a family to feed, how about my mom? Selfish much?

1 year at Simpang Bedok selling mixed veg rice, 1 year at Ubi selling the same stuffs until mom's few k savings were used up. With no other options, she had to work as a buffet driver which has irregular working time which was easier for her to take care of sis's baby.

Working as a buffet driver wasn't easy. You have to carry tables; big pots of food, buffet tray utensils and set up at customer's stuffs. Worse case is when the location has no lift! You have to carry all the items up to the level the customer's stays! Highest level we did before was 5th storey, really 要命! Plus, she's still a woman!


Due to some family problem, we didn't had to take care of the baby thus, mom could get a proper job @ Courts which pay rather well and job scope wasn't as tough as previous jobs.

I really admire and love my mom alot. She didn't gave up on herself and her own family despite having 2 failed marriages, working through many tough jobs and even get look down by those sickening relatives who comment saying that she work as a buffet driver is low-class job! Seriously they should fuck themselves and die! Raised 3 children of her own up herself and even her granddaughter who are no longer staying with us. Had to pay off my father's debts and family living expenses. Her life were really rough and tough, slogging her guts out to feed us yet my sister didn't appreciate and even disown her.

Although she's tied up to her neck with many work, bills and debts, she actually spent the time to hear my complains or just random talks with me. It may seems really not a big deal but it's really heartwarming. Although I didn't reach her expectations academically but I promised her I will work hard in Fashion Hooks and she always supports my decision in Fashion Hooks, giving me suggestions and ideas or even raising money for me to get stocks or pay for advertorials.

She also makes the effort to cook for us in the morning before she leaves for work which means she had to wake up earlier and has less sleep yet she did it for us without any complaints. That's why I always make it a point to finish as much as she cook because it's her effort and stuffs. Despite her not having much money, she will still buy good food for us and never starves us!

When she heard that I'm planning to lose weight, she bought loads of fruits for me to eat after my meals and even encourage me to eat by eating them with me after her work.

When I'm having a bad mood due to some bad comments at my formspring or any other stuffs, she always hear my complains and encourage me alot.

I was really stupid to place my friend as priority during secondary school days and often neglect my mom and family. In the end, my mom is the one who really stood by my sides when everything went falling apart.

Mom,


XOXO,
Cynthia Luvs

Labels: Dedication, Mom